I knew our house wouldn't sell in a week. I knew this from the beginning. I also know how mine and Matt's luck runs. It might be an eternity before we sell it.
I can't go anywhere until we do. Well I could...but I won't. I hate being in limbo. And that is exactly what we are in.
This sucks because I hate being alone.
HATE it with every ounce of my being. Don't get me wrong, I have my kiddos here with me. But when Matt leaves town for a few days at a time....I get lonely. Adult kind of lonely.
Matt and I have endured long distance. When we dated there was that time he lived in Houston for 10 months. When we first married and I was pregnant with Ty he was only home on the weekends and traveled long distances all week. Again when I was pregnant with Raegan he worked in Del Rio during the week and was home on the weekends. And I pretty much never saw him when we owned the restaurant, but at least I could drive up to where he was when ever I wanted to see him.
But now. Right now at this very moment. Its too hard for him to be gone.
Situations have changed. We have 3 kids now. We have school now. We have a baby now. We have a house for sale now. I don't have as many friends to help me keep my sanity now. I can handle ANYTHING....but I cant handle being alone.
I love all of the attention I get from the kids. Really I do. But I would really like to share it. Maybe with Matt.
But most of all I would LOVE for someone to pay attention to me. I want someone to think I'm a big deal.
I guess it goes with the territory.
And I know that it is all for a common goal. We are working towards something. It has been ME that has wanted to move back to Lubbock for so long and I cant bitch when Matt has finally made it happen! I mean really!
Poor guy. Poor me. I think that our lives will be so much easier and care free and uncomplicated once we get back there. I truly think that. For once on 8 years it will all fall into place for us.
But in the mean time....
Anybody want to buy a house?
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